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All my life I was told I was so special, never questioned it at all but knew deep down that I would fall.
I hear you now it's a self-fulfilling prophecy, always gonna end that way if I just write the song, okay.
Now here I am and there I was, rotting and crying and somehow not dying and...I give up.
All my life I was told I was so special but that was bullshit and I don't give a fuck about it.
Oh my god I'm another disappointment, I'll never lead nations or be a rich ass pig.
And what is it worth? And what does it get you? And what does it mean that I don't fall in line?
Will that make you happy? Will that fulfill you? If it's so great why are you miserable?
Life has no McGraw Hill textbook, so why are you trying to teach me, these made up rules for adult living.
There is no right way to do things, so if I want to be real meta, I'll do it now before the bridge.
Is there right and wrong? Is there good and bad? Or is everything that happens completely unique?
Don't know what to think. Don't know what to do, but if I'm being real, I can't go with you no more.
Don't get pissed off at me. Don't tell me you disagree, cause it means you can't see.
Life has no McGraw Hill textbook, so why are you trying to teach me, these made up rules for adult living.
There is no right way to do things, so if I want to be real meta, I'll do it now before the end.
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Burnt Bridges
03:00
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This is kind of fucking awkward, talking to you right now, after all these years.
And I just want to say I'm sorry for all the pain that I've caused when you've always cared.
This bridge is already burnt, I can't go back across it. This scar that I made myself will never heal.
I'll wait for as long as I have to, to make sure that it's alright to be friends again with you.
The apology tour will be right back when I blow it.
This bridge is already burnt, I can't go back across it. This scar that I made myself will never heal.
I wish I could live in this moment forever. When everything was perfect and right.
But one day the chips will be down for sure. And I have to show that I can be strong.
Can I do it this time? x4
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Build it all up, tear it all down, but there's still something there. I am so hurt and you are so tired, but there's still a spark of care.
What would I do without you? What couldn't you do without me? Should we still stick together or split at the seams?
We've been here before, we've seen it again, but here we are friends at the end. Hurt by our words, tired of the cycle but we never can break the trend.
What can I do to change things? What will it take to fix this? Should we still stay together or split so we can find our bliss?
I'm never gonna give up on you, I hope that you'd do the same. We're in it till the bitter end and I wouldn't have it any other way.
I have you and you have me and we will always be there when life's gloomy. You can count on me, I'll always be free.
So death do us part wasn't literal, I put you on top and never asked for the reciprocal.
Just tell me that it's worth it. The show goes on and I'm closing all the curtains. Tight white thong never took away the hurting. As the fight goes on I don't understand yr purpose.
You love me but hate me. You hunt me and date me. Don't trust me but chase me. You still can't replace me. The blood's on my hand cause the love's non-invasive. Just say what you want but I can't keep away and I ain't throwing the towel yet but I shoulda, I was gonna say that I hate you but I couldn't. I know it's real love, just say you feel the same, without yr hand on the blade, and I still call you babe.
I'm never gonna give up on you, I hope that you'd do the same. We're in it till the bitter end and I wouldn't have it any other way.
I have you and you have me and we will always be there when life's gloomy. You can count on me, I'll always be free.
You have me and I have you and we will always be there through and through. You don't have to choose to feel the blues.
I know I've been failing to be there for you when you need me. We keep fanning the flames when we should be trying to find peace.
Every time I think that's over, it's not over. But I don't want it to end. No, I don't need closure.
I have you and you have me and we will always be there when life's gloomy. You can count on me, I'll always be free.
You have me and I have you and we will always be there through and through. You don't have to choose to feel the blues.
I have you and you have me and we will always be there when life's gloomy. You can count on me, I'll always be free.
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Dissonant
02:39
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I'm so scared of not being able to do anything. I'm so terrified of striking out when it's my change to swing. I guess I'll sit and write these stupid songs.
I'm so stupid that I could never do anything with weight. I'm so naive that I'll buy into words that I should hate. I guess I'll leave the politics to the pros.
You've got it. You can have it all. You're gonna fall.
He's so confident despite the fact that he may lose again. It's so brave of him to give those like me a voice to defend. I guess there's hope for all of us after all.
You've got it. You can have it all. You're gonna fall.
In the darkest corner of yr mind. You find a way to believe. As you keep on pushing with the grind. You find there's hope to conceive.
When they try to take that light from you. You've got to hold on tight. When they try to show you twisted truths. You've got to put up a fight.
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Looking out of my window I see everywhere I want to go. I can't help being bitter when I stare out at the Winter.
Writing a new sad song as I sit alone and hit a bong. It sounds just like the others. Do I give up? Do I bother?
Small sir, get up and brush the chip off yr shoulder. The chip that's as big as a boulder. It doesn't look too good on you there.
Go now before you get older. Days go by you only get colder. It's time you just got up and you called her before she says that it's too late.
Life's starting to feel empty as I shut myself out from Philly. I always thought I'd be greater, now to my dream I'm a traitor.
Maybe the next day I'll start to feel like I have a little heart but something tells me I won't. If I don't try, there is no hope.
Small sir, get up and brush the chip off yr shoulder. The chip that's as big as a boulder. It doesn't look too good on you there.
Go now before you get older. Days go by you only get colder. It's time you just got up and you called her before she says that it's too late.
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ID
03:43
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You've got nothing I can relate to. Good god are all women just things to you? I can't talk about the others sex but I'll rant I don't like girls in a text.
You last out that I'm so queer but it makes me wonder, "is that so weird?" My dad thought I was too. My mom thought I was too. I don't know what I am but should I really give a damn?
Oh, I don't know what you're tryna say to me, to me. Oh, I don't know what the letter A is supposed to mean.
You lash out that I'm so strange but it makes me wonder if that's okay? And they thought I was too. And I thought I was too. I don't know what I am but should I really give a damn?
You lash out that I'm a mess but it makes me wonder if that's just stress. The stress from identity. The stress from self-pity. I don't know what I am but should I really give a damn?
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Interlude
01:37
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Take the hope from people, make them settle for evil. Have the right man show up at last. Shoot him down without a chance.
And it goes and we go into the abyss of no return. And it's gone and we've gone into the hell where we shall burn.
But there's still hope unless we cope. Settle for less. Never get the best for us.
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Laura's Theme
02:43
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Red surrounds everything the eye can see. No matter how much I try I cannot speak.
The lighting strikes a mood that I wish that I could remake. Something here makes my heart ache.
Her eyes capture a million memories. Will what waits for her finally set her free.
Her face expression makes me cry my eyes out in pain. Something here just went away.
Do I cherish the day when these feelings were on display, these feelings to replace hate.
Do I just give in? Do I watch it again? What will happen then when there is no end?
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Peace Of Mind
02:50
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When you want to get away, you never know what you wanna say. Sometimes you just want to run and hide, never know what you're gonna find.
But acting carefree gets you nowhere, so sometimes you gotta just bear with it. Get a little peace of mind.
Peace of mind. Peace of mind. Never let whose who will hurt you waste yr time. Peace of mind. Peace of mind. Always stay true, always get through, and be kind.
Take a plane to another land, live near trees, live near sand. Forget yr worries, forget yr woes, don't remember what you know.
But one day you are gonna return and then you will have to learn to deal. Get a little peace of mind.
Peace of mind. Peace of mind. Never let whose who will hurt you waste yr time. Peace of mind. Peace of mind. Always stay true, always get through, and be kind.
You will stand strong. I'd do no wrong. We can make it through together. You will get far. Show off yr scar. And always keep yourself together.
Peace of mind. Peace of mind. Never let whose who will hurt you waste yr time. Peace of mind. Peace of mind. Always stay true, always get through, and be kind.
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Raze
01:52
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I am not a self-hating jew. I just hate when innocents lose. I don't give a damn about the land, that we stole from their ancestors' hands.
I will not just fall in line as their population declines. Evict them, kill them, lead them astray, then act like it's free real estate.
But what can I do? What can I say to make the tiniest change?
The world is complacent with their crimes. America's okay if the other dies. They don't give a fuck about the jews. It's an investment. We're being used.
But what can I do? What can I say to make the tiniest change? Do I just watch as apartheid rages on?
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Russ (Dedication)
04:08
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You pick me up when things go down. I don't know how to get around but with you I never frown.
I get mad, I get sad, I never cherish the things we have but I know I make you glad.
And I will make you proud.
I may be leaving you but I'll always recall days where you had taught me new ways to move on and I'll be looking to the dawn.
You tell me words I've never heard. Sometimes they might seem so absurd but their meaning is never blurred.
You make me see that I can be anything from A to Z and that I am truly free.
And I will make you proud.
I may be leaving you but I'll always recall days where you had taught me new ways to move on and I'll be looking to the dawn.
I'll never forget what you've taught me, brought me, what you have always sought for me and I, I will never let you down.
I may be leaving you but I'll always recall days where you had taught me new ways to move on and I'll be looking to the dawn.
I'll never forget what you've taught me, brought me, what you have always sought for me and I, I will never let you down.
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Yr Fired
03:07
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1997 To Present
05:25
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Nineteen ninety seven is a long time in the past but when I think of what I've done that time didn't really last.
I can't seem to get over what happened in the past. While I'm stuck in 2010, the future's coming up fast.
Occasionally I think of a random dialog. A silly conversation where I went on about eggnog.
So many small things and big things too I just cringe. While I was hung up on that I missed an episode of Fringe.
I need to focus on what's in front of me. Keep my head attentive and not so damn empty. And if I can't do it I will just scream cause I'm a child, a baby, not even a teen.
I'm coming out of my shell and going straight to hell for every awkward moment and all of the worse stuff as well.
Can't seem to cry enough. Can't seem to whine enough. That never will help me but I'm not mentally tough.
I need to focus on what's in front of me. Keep my head attentive and not so damn empty. And if I can't do it I will just scream cause I'm a child, a baby, not even a teen.
I write songs in place of therapy sessions. Same old lyrics, same minor progression.
But time and time again, I don't change. I need to put the guitar down and find a new way to not be the same.
I need to focus on what's in front of me. Keep my head attentive and not so damn empty. And if I can't do it I will just scream cause I'm a child, a baby, not even a teen.
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Jodaki Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
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