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Yin And Yang
04:08
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Red pines and siberian tigers
In my blood which starts the fire
One could not be more proud of
All the parts that make a man
History is brutal
We are only mortals
But when the rising sun
Burnt them all they got strong
I look at the glory
I took to the stories
This is who I Am
No you’re not...no you’re not...you are a mutt
Yes you are...yes you are...and you know what
You’re a stray...you’re a stray...can’t find a home...to call your own
Domestic tongues rip up my foreign lungs but
will I integrate or will I separate
I say it’s my place but I don’t have the keys
When I open up my mouth gibberish just comes out
I guess I see the cup half empty
Would they like it if I just, leave
I’m not a sheet of paper I am a nugget of gold
Dense with great things but I’ve been sold
No you’re not...no you’re not...you are a mutt
Yes you are...yes you are...and you know what
You’re a stray...you’re a stray...can’t find a home...to call your own
I don’t want...I don’t want...to be home-less
I don’t care...I don’t care...if I must enlist
I just want...I just want...to find a, home...to call my own
When I die burn me into ashes
So I don’t get stuck in my casket
Pour me out and let the wind take me
So I can just travel the blue seas
I don’t want to be lost anymore
I don’t want to be homeless anymore
I just wanted to pick their side and have their eyes and have their pride.
Half and whole may not be equal
But faces don’t make up a people
If I’m not one of them then I’m my own, person
I am yin and yang
I am ginseng and sang
Can’t put my roots in a country but I have found a home in me
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2. |
Creative Block
02:54
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I don't know what I wrote, but here I go
You are my shining star, my candy bar, so sweet
Cut the crap, that's a wrap, I love you way more than that
It's okay, you can stay, I just don't know what to say
Why can't the words come through, to you, to you, to you
I quit many lyrics, they make me sick
Removed, cause I disprove, now I should move along
Cut the crap, that's a wrap, I love you way more than that
It's okay, you can stay, I just don't know what to say
Why can't the words come through, to you, to you, to you
And maybe I'll write something, that gets you back to writing
Or maybe I'll spark yr mind, to get you out of yr bind
And maybe I'll give you hope, to get up and not just mope
Or maybe I'll find a way, to get you to finally play
Cut the crap, that's a wrap, I love you way more than that
It's okay, you can stay, I just don't know what to say
Why can't the words come through, to you, to you, to you
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Self-Aware
02:36
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How can't you see
You're just crazy
You say you're right
Guess we'll have to fight
You say that you're self-aware
But that's not right, I'm self-aware
Watch yr place, I'll punch yr face
Never trust, never trust those like you
Tell me reasons
You just hate skin
You hide with lies
You try to justify
You say that you're self-aware
But that's not right, I'm self-aware
Watch yr place, I'll punch yr face
Never trust, never trust those like you
If it's so clear to me that they are wrong
I wonder what could I be wrong about
If it's so hard for them to open their eyes
What are my lies
You say that you're self-aware
But that's not right, I'm self-aware
Watch yr place, I'll punch yr face
Never trust, never trust those like you
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4. |
Party Hardly
03:40
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As I walk around the basement
I start to make little sense
The alcohol goes to my mind, but all the thoughts are still mine
I start to approach her
But my body just defers
I drink and drink to make it right, but my head always feels light
I just wanna get over my fears
The more I drink, the more I think
Maybe I just need more beers
I just wanna be normal
Not like a fool, not like a tool
When I push there is a pull
My every word is garbage
I don't seem to have an edge
I ask her to dance with me, but in my thoughts I just scream
I am as stiff as a robot
No luck, I feel as though I'm shot
I smile and laugh away, but really I'm just insane
I just wanna get over my fears
The more I smoke, the more I choke
Maybe I just need more beers
I just wanna be normal
Not like a fool, not like a tool
When I push there is a pull
I take drugs, to make me feel okay
They don't work, I'm still the guy I hate
First it's weed, now it's LSD
What is next, will it just kill me
Can't you see, I wanna talk to you
Look at me, I wanna see this through
You're scary, I'm shaking and sweating
I must leave. I'm fucking up, I'm fucking up, I'm fucking up
I am gonna get over my fears
The less I drink, the more I think
Maybe I don't need the beers
I am already normal
I'm not a fool, I'm not a tool
My mind is something I rule, yeah
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5. |
Explode
03:58
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Words fade. My brain. More weight. Thinking anyway.
They’re stern. Anger. Feels stir. My mind begins to fester.
I am losing my mind. There is no more, before I explode.
Calm down. Thoughts drown. They frown. I am a god damn clown.
Think straight. Just wait. It’s fate. I have to fucking break.
I am losing my mind. There is no more time, before I explode.
I have no control of all of my soul, so I will explode right now.
Less heat. Just think. And breathe. I finally can see.
The pain. Will stay. This way. Outside it starts to rain.
No more. I’m worn. And torn. It’s like it was before.
I cry. You sigh. Goodbye. My actions next aren’t mine.
I am losing my mind. There is no more time, before I explode.
I have no control of all of my soul, so I will explode.
I am losing my mind. There is no more time, before I explode.
I have no control of all of my soul, so I will explode some day.
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Took a swig of arm and hammer, never said depression had glamour
She said I'm a fucking joke, when I spit it out and almost choked, yeah
Does the little kid want attention? Yeah I got it and some IG Mentions
I guess I never really seem to question, why I do it, every time I'm sad
Dad always said be a man, tears were never part of that plan and
Mom would never understand, but she tried, I guess they both tried
Friends say that they've got my back, get a little mad and that back is stabbed
Everything just becomes sad, but I try, I gotta keep trying
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7. |
By Myself
03:08
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Gotta make my escape, must create a new fate
Hold my breath while I walk, but that won't help me slip by
Run as far as my legs go, call a taxi cause I'm slow
Find somewhere else to call home I'm never coming back so
Fuck all my friends and fuck all my family, I didn't need them anyway
I can keep on going by myself like it's always been
So
Fuck all my friends and fuck all my family, I didn't need them anyway
I can keep on going by myself like it's always been (x3)
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8. |
Target Capitalism
02:58
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Nowhere to live so I shock you at yr door
Ya said come in but you seemed unsure
Asked me how long this would be for
Months go by while I’m sleeping on yr floor
You’re getting pissed so I work at a retail store
But now my life’s become a fuckin’ bore
I guess I will smoke the days away
Every day is all the same but I guess I can’t complain
Have a roof above my head no days out in the rain
But now I find myself content with my red state
Clocking in at 12pm just to fund corporate’s pay
Feels like a cycle of inadequacy
Go to work, go and smoke, go to bed, repeat
My life’s descending into monotony
“But hey dude yr job’s giving you good money”
It’s a start, it’s better, it’s the truth you see
So sell yr labor power for necessities
I guess I will fall back in line
Every day is all the same but I guess I can’t complain
Have a roof above my head no days out in the rain
But now I find myself content with my red state
Clocking in at 12pm just to fund corporate’s pay
But I can’t ever stand up for myself
I can’t ever save the day
I just keep on shaking, afraid
Always acting half my age
I say I will never raise my fist
I say I won’t get others to enlist
Never gonna go resist
I’m full of shit in all lyrics
But I’m tired
Tired of this
This feeling
Feeling Wasted
Wasted life
Wasted chances
Wasted everything cause it ended up with me wasting away
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9. |
Memory
03:57
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Today might be the last day we'll ever be together, but I would not say never
Today might be the last time I ever get to see you, but I hope it's not true
I don't want to say goodbye to you, might just end up a lie to you
Because I'll always have you in my heart, so we'll never be apart
I'll miss you, I'll be blue, but this is no adieu
You'll have me, in yr memory, so just don't be unhappy
Some day, I might say that you had broke my heart, even though that's not yr part
Some day, I might say that I never want to hear from you, even though that's not true
I don't want to say goodbye to you, might make our friendship die to you
Because the distance will break our hearts, so that we'll always be apart
I'll miss you, I'll be blue, but this is no adieu
You'll have me, in yr memory, so just don't be unhappy
Just leave me, don't grieve me, and always remember me
Just leave me, don't grieve me, and always remember me
I'll keep my own distance, so you'll respect my existence
So you won't just hate me, like I may one day hate you
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10. |
Second Chances
04:16
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Keep begging for second chances
Keep making false promises
Keep staying the same proving the lying is chronic
Keep telling my friends I'm not strange
Keep telling my family I will change
Keep staying the same proving that to me it's all a game
This is no second chance, more like the hundredth advance
I'm not getting better, I'm not getting better
I think I've found the answer
The secret I've been after
But I stay the same proving that my will's the only factor
And I know I'm slightly different
But those changes made me ignorant
To the fact that the difference is indifferent
This is no second chance, more like the hundredth advance
I'm not getting better, I'm not getting better
Run away, run away, run away, run away from me
So I'm sorry Alex
I'm sorry Mickey
I'm sorry Bryan
and I'm sorry Nikki
I was wrong Tyler
I was wrong Austin
I was wrong Robert
and I was wrong Ethan
Keep making second chances
Keep making several advances
I've lost you all, but I've learned a major lesson
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